~5 days
This week has been a week of pensiveness yet not one thought stood out for me to focus on. Feeling blah all week yet masking it for myself because there was no depression involved nor stress, so it was just blah. I think I need a vacation from my self conscious and a body out reach from the world. My bills although unappealing bother me not but for what ever reason I float without purpose this week. My mind refuses to drift but remains a float, I cannot drown my life preserver, which I'm sure I did not grab is wrapped tightly around my neck. I remain alive but in an ocean of thoughts not able to purify this salt water. I refuse to tread water and I do not look to be saved but eventually my waves shall carry me to shore so I can walk again. I love walking on the rocks and pieces of wood which try to puncture my feet but my feet are tough for I wear no shoes and barefoot is how I stand.
~kira