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Where do I stand at the moment?

My lack of motivation to do just about anything leaves me at a standstill...

What is it about me that makes me so unmotivated to get out and just do something? I can't seem to figure it out at all, its like I only have energy or the spirit to do something when it takes place elsewhere.

This has got to change...

I need to make myself get into that routine I so often hate to be apart of, I need to set up a schedule of things to do and follow that schedule. This could work out pretty good because I may be able to actually learn something and spark an interest in something else.

My feelings resembles something like being in a hole but not a deep hole just deep enough that I would have to lift my body weight to get out and I can but I just don't. I remain in my hole looking out but all I do is watch the feet as they walk by, uninterested in me they continue to walk on by and I have no concern for them either...

I shall start a list today...

~~Kira