New Toy

I have a new toy coming my way either this week or next but definitely soon. My new toy is much overdue since I have wanted something to occupy my need for gadgets. This will help me to stay content for a while till I have the urge again. Really excited now and I saved a bunch of money. I enter as a newb into the crackberry crew. :P

#!Kira*&

"Reality continues to ruin my life" C&H

No ones there

My life has been filled with people...Yet I was always alone. I lack the human feeling of loneliness, it just wont make sense to me. I enjoy being to myself yet I can be surrounded and be the life of a party. I have a feeling that I am becoming less and less humane than I already think I am not. Why does my mind work the way it works? Am I being ridiculous by thinking there shouldn't be so many feelings? or any? I have feelings, right? I know I do. I care genuinely for those I know are real, but then why am I so easy to push people away and not look back at the drop of a dime? I don't look to eliminate associates, but im just too old for the bullshit. If I make someones life hard, uneasy, or anywhichway negative, why not open their eyes and show them the best solution? I have evolved into something that I cannot say im proud of but something a little more "real". Real in terms of dealing with situations but dead in every other way. I think I should just become a Vampire. I mean seriously my emotions are not quite there, I love the nite and darkness and I feel dead. Why not?

~Kira

Under______

The complexity of my mind confuses me in ways that I just can't understand. Many times and times again I have tried to figure out what it is that creates this evil and I can come up with no answer. Still trying to figure out what sets me apart from your typical serial killer. Is it my lack of killing? Our minds seem to fit the same criteria. This trip to search for the answer cannot come any sooner. Money and Time only stand in my way. Snowboarding season cannot come any quicker. I need my out.

~Kira