Lightning and the thunder that follows...

What is it about lightning and thunder that I love so much?

For a long time now I have always fancied thunder showers and thought anything less was a waste. Rain without lightning and thunder is just an annoyance... I love the way the darkness is illuminated by a flash of light and a calm of the rain coming down is woken up by a thunderous crash. I find a peacefulness to it all, there haven't been many thunderstorms in NY lately and I find that rather sad. Last night the thundershower was great but I was preoccupied with other things which didn't allow me the chance to enjoy it. Today there seems to be another thundershower in the works so I have decided to sit on the porch and watch but it seems to calm. I find this upsetting because I really do enjoy the feeling of lightning getting closer and closer. A car alarm is screaming for someone to calm him in the distance, he must have been alarmed by the boom of the sky but no one comes to his aid. I think I have missed yet another storm and there is a calm which is soothing but not what I want at the moment. The alarm has either been silenced or he no longer sees a reason to be scared. I constantly tell people I want to experience a tornado and they look at me as if im crazy, Why? Something as beautiful as only nature can put together is fascinating to me. Of course I don't cherish the tragedy that goes along with the power but it is something to be humble about.

Maybe im just not normal and of course I know this to be true but fuck being normal if life is meant to be lived in the safety of a cocoon never having to worry about a thing.

~Kira

Am I ready?

I don't know if I'm ready for anything that I put myself into... I recently just told my friend that I am living my life as if I'm going to die in 5 years. What better way to live life eh? The reason I have chosen to do this is to get myself to live my life in a more fulfilling way. My life is not something to just have lived for you but to be lived by you. There is just so much more I want from life and I want to do it now rather than later...

Give me a break its my first blog post in a while.
~Kira