So anyways~~~
As I sat in the doc office waiting to be seen, I started to think as I often do.
My thoughts wonder upon something which I just can't seem to figure out, which is WHAT NOW?
WHAT NOW?
That is the question I fall upon when I have nothing to occupy my attention.
That is the question that makes me feel as if I have done nothing with my life.
That is the question which makes me feel incomplete.
This fucking question cannot be answered by me.
I have tried and tried and tried again, but nothing.
A quarter of a century has gone by and nothing really to show for it.
Yea I have my "DEGREE" <--What does that mean?
I have a "JOB" aka 9-5 <--To pay bills?
Ok! Ok! NOW WHAT?
Enjoy my job? Yes, but what is this above my head a Ceiling? Roof? Barricade? Dead End?
The search for something else to do turns up hiring freezes everywhere.
Is there a purpose to this life?
Constantly confused as a child by the question. "What do you want to do when you grow up?"
LOL I still have no fucking clue, but wait...When do I grow up?
Oh how I wish I knew what it was that I wanted to do when I was 5, 7, 10, 13, 15, 16, 18, 20, and 21.
I should have really thought about it, but I was assured "Your still young you have time".
Am I worried?
For what?
I worry not of things I cannot figure out I just allow my ignorance to become knowledge with
time as I strive for the answers of questions that confuse me.
Then again its not {what} you know, its {who} you know and unfortunately I don't know the
right people.
So I think...
