Making it is only just presenting the self in an environment that changes perspective or does it? Finding myself gaining success in something I wanted to do leaves me with the self of confusion again. Happiness in present location is a no brain-er but am I losing myself? Many people have I met but isolated I make it to be with self. Often wondering "why" but with no real explanation for it, enjoying my own company is one thing but enjoying it as much as I am may be a little too much. Is it necessary to continue being a loner? I think it is but there is no reason not to keep myself out in the open and around others to share moments. Resigning for another year is a great thing because there is nothing back in the previous location for me. I want to continue this journey I am on to figure out where it will land me and see who I will meet but is just merely meeting people good enough without making any lasting impressions or friendships? I am OK! with it but maybe I could change it up, I meet many people in passing and leaving a great first impression but never really staying in contact with those I have previously encountered. Why is this? Why is it that my follow up is so poor?
This is something I have asked myself many times over but I just can't figure it out. I shall go into a pensive state on the subject matter...
