So I think...

No work for me today the doc just seemed a little more important...I hate being sick.

So anyways~~~

As I sat in the doc office waiting to be seen, I started to think as I often do.

My thoughts wonder upon something which I just can't seem to figure out, which is WHAT NOW?

WHAT NOW?

That is the question I fall upon when I have nothing to occupy my attention.

That is the question that makes me feel as if I have done nothing with my life.

That is the question which makes me feel incomplete.

This fucking question cannot be answered by me.

I have tried and tried and tried again, but nothing.

A quarter of a century has gone by and nothing really to show for it.

Yea I have my "DEGREE" <--What does that mean?

I have a "JOB" aka 9-5 <--To pay bills?

Ok! Ok! NOW WHAT?

Enjoy my job? Yes, but what is this above my head a Ceiling? Roof? Barricade? Dead End?

The search for something else to do turns up hiring freezes everywhere.

Is there a purpose to this life?

Constantly confused as a child by the question. "What do you want to do when you grow up?"

LOL I still have no fucking clue, but wait...When do I grow up?

Oh how I wish I knew what it was that I wanted to do when I was 5, 7, 10, 13, 15, 16, 18, 20, and 21.

I should have really thought about it, but I was assured "Your still young you have time".

Am I worried?

For what?

I worry not of things I cannot figure out I just allow my ignorance to become knowledge with
time as I strive for the answers of questions that confuse me.

Then again its not {what} you know, its {who} you know and unfortunately I don't know the
right people.

So I think...