Why do I just not want to be here?

Everyday I become more and more annoyed with the idea of being in the States.

"Just go" I am told but it's not that simple or is it?

Sometimes I just want to pick up and just go but where to and how without money?

I want to land a job in another country.

A lot of people criticize me about my idea of wanting to do something so "drastic" but it really isn't.

The whole idea of doing something like this isn't like im trying to escape anything or maybe I am and that being the rountine of everyday life.

I just want to try something else out for a while to see whether not I can leave everything behind and remain "sane".

The idea of waking up every morning and not knowing a purpose of my existence puts me in the state of uncertainty which leads me to believe that I do not belong "here". Being intrigued quite often by the differences in other cultures and just life makes me want more. Everytime i take a short break I realize more and more I just want to try a different step and get off this elevator to no where.

Who Am I? Where do I belong? I just don't fit in...

~ Kira