Take everything

I sit here watching the travel channel just hoping to go everywhere, but lack of money holds me back. I make sacrifices but there has to be something else that will allow me to get out there and see what it is I would like to see. I shall take it a few steps at a time. I need so sharpen up on my history of the places in which I am going to visit. There are so many things out there that I cannot settle for what is within my reach, I need to strive for what seems unobtainable. After Thailand I shall realize what it is I need to do in my life, whether that be continuing in my field of study or finding something else to make me whole. I am starting to realize that life is all about making the self as happy as it can be. Too many people dwell on the bad things in life and allow it to stress and depress them. I often reflect back on my college days around Junior/Senior year when I came to the realization that I didn't think I knew how to have fun anymore. I have some how molded myself into someone who no longer allows stress to enter my life. I have been able to do this by not allowing myself to let others negativity influence me into following the human part of nature which gets stressed. I like the person I have been becoming but also afraid of the long term effects my transition may have on me. Fuck it! I am living life to my most extreme which I shall never know until I reach it and then I will push it even more. Tired of waiting around its time to go. DR, LONDON and DUBLIN Here I come. 

I have recently stumbled upon this site that has shown me 50 things to do before I die. I have done some of the 50 but this is just adding to my bucket list. 

http://thetravelersnotebook.com/activity-guide/50-things-to-do-before-you-die/