This is probably more me than I want to even believe myself... There is something out there that is lacking by me staying here. It feels as if there is no future for me here, I can't see anything worth staying for. I have no career, girl, kids or family... why is it that I just stay then? Fear?
Maybe fear is the most logical reasoning behind my decision no to just pick up and go, but there is also one other thing, Money. How does one just pick up to leave without having any money to do so? I know I could rough it but for how long? Making it my duty to find ways to make money when on the travel I have contacted a friend who has skills in which I would like to learn. Learning these skills link directly to travel blogging and also giving me something else to work with in life...
Do I want to leave forever?
I doubt I want to leave forever but I do want to leave for an extended period of time. This could definitely effect me in a negative way but it can also lead to something so much bigger and everyone makes mistakes right? So here is a "mistake" I would like to make to see if it was all for the best or for the worst. Frankly I just want to change atmospheres, learn something from myself and maybe just growing into myself.
What ever the reason may be I just don't feel as if I should remain within the environment I am currently apart of... I want more and who can tell if that more is out there? The answer is No one but myself and I want to find out.
I need myself to let me free from my captivities in which I hold myself... The strongest hold one can have on themselves from doing what it is they want to do is themselves and I plan to break that hold... I only hope I am strong enough to do so :/
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