The Need

There is a constant flame inside me that burns for something else, something I have yet to gather 100 percent and yet I know what it is deep down inside. I refuse to make this flame go out so I continue to add more fuel to this fire. With no one to really discuss what seems just crazy to the normal person, I sit here with thoughts and Ideas which I stand alone with. I am not normal, I don't fit the normal criteria of a human being, I am a realist and that makes me out of the ordinary. Brave new traveler sends me emails all the time with interesting reads and the more I read the more I wonder what the hell am I doing here. Yesterday a "friend" of mine decides to aim me and we get into our normal disagreements on our views. Fulfillment of life was the general idea behind our discussion, I believe there is no real fulfillment in a life that is spent in the same region of the world when there is so much more to be seen. Traveling has become a passion of mine and has always been even when I wasn't able to do it due to money, but now with little money and the many sacrifices I make, I am able to do these travels little by little. I can't understand how one can be happy with what sits in front of them, when books and television only give an idea of what's out there, I want to see it all and take it in person. I speak like I have been many places which I have not but something has always wanted to get away, to go else where, to meet new people and just to be free of the restrains which so many people stay shackled with. I know I can always be educated more and I am making a huge effort to allow myself to gain knowledge and develop my mind some more. I can't blame anyone but myself for being where I am on an educational level but I have the most powerful tool at my disposal, the internet and I shall use it to develop my mind as much as I can. There is a need, a need for so much more and there isn't enough time to make this all go to waste. My priorities are set on living a fulfilling life and being happy. Happiness is something that one can experience and hold forever. Materialistic things don't last forever but experiences will and shall hold a special place in ones heart. 

~Kira